August 2010
1 post
Good thing the lovesick-ness was only temporary
July 2010
2 posts
You left me in the dark
If I give 100%, I need you to give the same.
June 2010
4 posts
It’s nice knowing that all those other girls want you, but you only want me.
I ignored the pleasure and focused on the pain.
If I said that I needed you, would you believe me?
I’ve picked myself up just to be knocked back down.
I was almost over it Took 5 steps forward Then 5 more back Hello, square one, it’s nice to see you again
May 2010
8 posts
I'd be lying if I said I was over it.
It was like having the earth ripped out from under me It was like having a bomb dropped in my lap It was like having my heart pulled out through my throat It hurt
I can’t even…
This is going to hurt for a while. I’m going to be bitter for a while. I won’t be able to forget for a while. Nothing will feel right for a while. One day, I will get over this, but not for a while.
You said, "I have no idea what to say to you."
That was exactly what I needed to hear. Apologies would have been useless. Praise would have been out of place. My agony was heartfelt, and so were your words. You kissed my head, and I knew the pain would end eventually.
You ran towards me with your arms outstretched And I had the biggest grin on my face All the pain, all the time spent was finally worth it In those few moments
everything is alright actually, it’s all great and i’m happy and that’s beyond great
April 2010
3 posts
i’m angry all the time and i don’t know why
my shirt was half unbuttoned my hair was disheveled i was falling all over the place but none of that mattered
you can come home now now that i miss you so much i can’t function properly now that i can barely think straight now that i realized i need you
March 2010
11 posts
I don't even have words to spell out how I'm...
i just needed to hear your voice
i miss you so much it’s making me sick
i don’t think you know, or are reading this, or even care, but this is all for you.
I just want to be amazing.
you said you could never leave me but soon enough, you’ll change your mind boys always change their minds
i think i’ve finally ran out of things to write ran out of unhappiness to release ran out of problems to solve ran out of frustration and resentment and hatred and anger it’s gone finally
you said, “i never expected to see this side of you.” i said, “is that a bad thing?” you never answered my question
i forgot what it was like to have a good day let me tell you, it’s nice so nice that i might have another one tomorrow
sorry, i'm just not used to things working out...
we were ouside in the middle of winter but i felt so warm and the stars looked so nice when you were holding me tight
it hit me all at once and although i’m not sure what it was i’m sure it hurt
February 2010
19 posts
you warmed me up when i got cold you held my hand when i began to shake you kissed me goodbye when you left come back please?
my hands are so cold without you here to hold them
…and then you kissed me
if it hurts this much, it must be love
I’m scared that I’m too deep in this relationship to escape unscathed. I’m scared that I need you more than you need me. I’m scared that you’ll change your mind. I’m scared that this won’t work. I’m scared that what I feel isn’t real. I’m scared that I’ll spend the next 4 years of my life missing you. I’m scared that...
You'll never know how crushed I was when you...
you are not exactly what i want but you are everything that i need
i miss you even when you’re not gone i want to be closer even when you’re right next to me i need you even though you don’t need me
Just when you think you know someone, they turn...
Your hand was on my waist My arms were around your neck We were inches apart And I just walked away Acting like I didn’t feel it too What I felt was so overwhelming I got scared
i’ve gone 18 years without making a mistake without taking a wrong turn without raising the stakes without breaking the rules without getting what i want please just let me fuck this up so it’s beyond repair i need to i need you
I will forgive you every single time.
i’m too scared to take the first step but you think i’m fearless anyways
i need your arms around my waist.
i would have tried harder if i could and you should know that but now i’ll just regret the fact that i didn’t live up to your standards
i’m sitting here missing you while you’re 6 miles away missing me you could end the torture now but you don’t why?
i want your hand back in mine.
i was thinking about you then i realized that i was biting my knuckles
January 2010
71 posts
i don’t think you understand this isn’t a game to me i don’t want to play anymore
all of this internal conflict is making me sick but you’re always here to make me feel better you don’t deserve this